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I DUNT LYKE TO TALK MUCH
I DUNT RILI LYKE TO TALKX with girls except E FUN ONE NOT E SERIUS ONE
I CANT BE CLOSE WITH ANYONE or else i feel paranoid in e end
IM SHY ARD E OPPOSITE SEX
I BYTE MY NAILX
When I get mad I curse
i DUNT LYKE ANYONE
I byte my mum bfore 2 yrs ago but i feel guilty(she is ma best mum)
iM E FIRST daughter
i love my parents
i love kitten but i afraid to take care of em as pet
I have been told tat i'm cute n i luk lyke dayang but i dunt think so nyahaa
i have changed a lot over e past yr
i have a hair cut n hair coloured n ma hair turn spoilt due to alot of chemicalx
I do home skincare treatment at least thrice a wk
I HAVE A Mood swing
I have rejected someone before
Im now strtin startin to hav a healhy lyfestyle cx i think of my future
I do home workouts altenately
i quit to smoke too much
im not e mawnin person
I love humble n friendly people n i respect tat
Im quiet doesnt mean im arrogant cus im very shy

i love u means that i accept you for e person that you r and tat i do not wish to change u into sumone else.It means that i do not expect perfectionx frm u just u do not expect it frm me.It meanx tat i will love u n stand by u even truhgh e woest of tymex.It meanx lovin u when ure in bad mood or too tired to do e thingx tat i want to do.It meanx lovin u when ure down not just when ure fun to be with.'I LOVE YOU' meanx tat i know ur deepest secret n do not judge u for em,askin in return only tat u do not judge me for mine.It meanx tat i care enuf to fight fer what we have n tat i luv enuf not to let go.It meanx thinkin of u,dreamin of u,wantin n need u constantly , n hoping that u feel e same way fer me.


VERY CHEESEY BUT TRUE

had great tyme spend with boyfie at e beach love him so much..bf accompany me go suntanning..while waitin fer ma skin get dark,he turn out to bcum lyke cancing cant kip still walk here n there bcos of e sun..he feel bored n entertain e pathetic bangla.. bf scared himself get burn.....haha.he join e caucasian playin rugby..... 10.30am mon 15/2/2010.......

1 bottle of green tea egg tart 5 nuggetx call bf,
2moro cut hair at far east,shop accesories,darken ma hair colour

Your the one who clearx ma sorrow and wipex away ma tearx
Your the guy who makex me laugh and chases away my fearx
You ma love, are ma hope Ma inspiration to write
Mz darlin, you mean more to me Than anything in life
When I gaze into your eyex I love you even more If ur ex return you
When we're forced to say goodbye tho Ma heart becomes torn
Ma love for you cannot compare to the love of any other
i cnt find betta guy except you
beCox even if we separate I could never love another
If you were in danger I'd take my life for yourx
Because love, if you were hurt ma life would be destroyed
I cant begin to tell you Just what I feel for you
Instead I will narrow it down to three little wordx

FINALLY I GOT JOB AS BEAUTY ADVISOR CENOSIS
FACE AND BODY SLIMMING TREATEMENTX
E COMPANY GOT E PACKAGE OF MANICURE,COSMETIC,N HAIRDO
I GOT TO LEARN ALL OF THIS ESPECIALly MANICURE...START AFTA CNY...........HOP E PPLE THERE IS FRIENDLY N DNT MAKE MA LIFE DIFFICULT.. ALL E BEST FOR ME...




How do I tell you, all that I feel? When I maself wonder "is this al real?" Emotionx lie dormant, lost in the past, naw they hav all surfaced, the current runx fast. Ive bin swimmin in a sea of regret, headin towardx shore, as dayx turn to sunsetx. Ive never allowed much love in ma life as bfo, when I did it cut like a knife. I felt ma heart bleed, and heard ma heart break. But here I naw stand, wiping cobwebx frm ma eyex, and pickin up the piecex frm ma past full of liex. The sun risex jux as it setx. The water is recedin in ma sea of regretx. Off in the distance I see a rainbow, I feel ma heart string, as love beginx to grow. You take a step towardx me, and offer your hand. Two setx of footprintx naw lay in the sand. Wil you be with me, with each new sunrise? And slide down the rainbow where the pot of gold liex? Wil you take ma hand in yourx, and never lead me astray? Wil you love me and need me wit the close of each day?

itx been long tyme ass i didnt update ma blog..
urrgghh...life bin gettin stressful.......alot of thingx bin clouded inside my thick skull n
i guex itx alread overpolluted cx ma brain is numb ryte nw,,,,however, desperately i nid a job...i wana get a job by yr 2010.. my ambition wana to bcum a makeup artist..i got interest n diploma cert in tat..if possible i dnt want to work as ratail fashion boutiquex itx fcukin sickenin..ma dad hav bin werkin hard throwin out notes fer my course fees..i jux dont want to disapoint em...i love em reali alot...i rili feel bad.........
ive got no confidence inside my heart to join e cosmeticx environment....i need to learn more.........
i nid to earn money to cover up for my ownself,,giv ma mum $$$ for her needs...........n i wana save up fo ma future i wan to marry ????? one day i nid at least a stable job..........oh God please fulfill my wish...pls gimme more nerves n burn up my nervouse frm publicity so tat im bold enuf to get on wit my ambition...pls...........ive been too much indulge wit my daydreamx.... but i wish it wont decay n fulfill it one day...

hmm aniway..in 2 weekx tyme im turnin up 1 yr older...yeyeh if im forever21..itx fcukin cool on earth...yg laen tue..aku mseh mude kan bgos..haa...bf jealous tat i still luk cuter than him..
12th dec zoukout??..im goin wit bf n frenxx................getx freakout cx ma skin doenxt luuk tan lyke bfo....my skin will luk yuckx on tt day ahh nemid jx fcuk it...im no more beach babes durin ma sch dayx..bf lazy to accompany me to pantai*winkxx*............

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when yU R dreamin
wit a broken heart,
the wakin up is the hardest part
d0nt base your fcukin decisionX
off of the advice of pple that
d0nT hav to deal with the resultx.
SometimeX you have to l0se
s0methin g00d t0 get somethin bettA.
but really in the end im startin
t0 realixe that we live
in 0rder t0 change s0me0ne elsex life
replace fear of the unknown with curiosity,
try it sometime y0u might like it.
Change is the only abs0lute
in tis w0rld; its the 0nly
thing we can depend 0n.
N0thin stayx the same.
Tom0r0 will c0me;
ringin with it new beginninx
& s0metimex unexpected endinx.
Y0u can h0ld 0n t0 the fcukin past
& get left in the dust,
0r y0u can ch00se to jump
on to the ride of your life
&live a new adventure
with perseverance &an open mind
if we'r lucky,
we realixe that in the face of everytin,
the true dream is being
able t0 dream & all
she dnt need any empatise
frm pple wen shex in bad conditon
have her own limit in anything she does
she fcukin seriux wen cumx to seriux thing