Jux awake
brain aint function well but ma handx r itchy nw still super tired ma bonex r limp.....
Last nyte we headed down to 0 Bar..was terribly pretty fun + funny afta ystadae reflection there..
Getting drinks are such a chore bf treat me tanx sm bf(but guex i got high anywayx HAHA). Dance dance, i fallin' apart to half time, ma back is sore but to say the least my legx arent angry at me (thanks legx for being so understanding, yur a peach (taken from thug)).First club in agex I was lyke so hyper bf told me tat lol gosh e song thou i wasnt into it im not good wit e dance n songx but i jx anyhow at least ma body move fer abit haha jx maen sebat but duhh eu noe wat i got fell off e high stoolx twice..haha k im suckx...paiseyh lol..Bf i got annoyed wen eu dance wit gerlx.....................grrr.......but luckily ma patience ix there at tat moment

My childhood aged of 6 till 17 yrx consisted of:
toys,wat i want make sure ma parentx fulfil if nt i will cried loudly at e mall,pampered spoiltbrat,stress wit studiex,nt interest wit guyx,luk nerdy n decent,discovering the wonders of makeup and secretly strt addicted smokin wen i ws 17 insid e room n spray lotx of perfumex all over ma body,brush ma teeth wit fresh colgate so tat itx doexnt smell badly..

Now, all I think about is:hurt, change, manipulation, stressing abt gettin proper job money $$$ fear of loosin e love onex..Till then, tea + digestives, shiny toy gunx+michelle branch natsha beddingfield and redsamporna make a bearable substitute



♥ Boyfriend Razif

I can't sleep because once again, my thoughts are running wild among the wildfire.Time for reflection. nw den eu noe the truth hurts, but lies worse.but boy i dnt lie lyke eu did to me..ma heart is already shut down for eu ttx e reason i ignored ur msg/call for so long..dnt blame me cx eu noe urslf tat we r officialy over..we r nw in separated way n im alread found sumone betta.. oh boy.. im fallin in love wit ma Prince R...Nw on ur fcukin ages eu can feel it ryte nw tat ur angel is sayin gdbye.. hw mch i felt tis fcukin sick pain mch worst den eu ohboy if eu noe hw to feel it bad n if eu waken up bt itx over too late ..Eu r jx wastin ma fcukin tyme eu done big sinful to me bytch n itx done nw .Dnt feel gd or bad nw cx im not ur angel tat ya tink of lyke last tyme ....dnt need to regret or blablabla guex ya shud b happier nw cux ya chose tis way what!? get sumbody betta or bcum beta person la lessen ur pple not to hate eu la.....i dnt wana know about eu nw, Till then, itx ma love you're abusing n eu bring disgrace to ma pastlyfe fcuk...CIAO.

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wit a broken heart,
the wakin up is the hardest part
d0nt base your fcukin decisionX
off of the advice of pple that
d0nT hav to deal with the resultx.
SometimeX you have to l0se
s0methin g00d t0 get somethin bettA.
but really in the end im startin
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in 0rder t0 change s0me0ne elsex life
replace fear of the unknown with curiosity,
try it sometime y0u might like it.
Change is the only abs0lute
in tis w0rld; its the 0nly
thing we can depend 0n.
N0thin stayx the same.
Tom0r0 will c0me;
ringin with it new beginninx
& s0metimex unexpected endinx.
Y0u can h0ld 0n t0 the fcukin past
& get left in the dust,
0r y0u can ch00se to jump
on to the ride of your life
&live a new adventure
with perseverance &an open mind
if we'r lucky,
we realixe that in the face of everytin,
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have her own limit in anything she does
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