she say she no good wit wordx

Bold e truth no mistake

2010-03-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

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I DUNT LYKE TO TALK MUCH
I DUNT RILI LYKE TO TALKX with girls except E FUN ONE NOT E SERIUS ONE
I CANT BE CLOSE WITH ANYONE or else i feel paranoid in e end
IM SHY ARD E OPPOSITE SEX
I BYTE MY NAILX
When I get mad I curse
i DUNT LYKE ANYONE
I byte my mum bfore 2 yrs ago but i feel guilty(she is ma best mum)
iM E FIRST daughter
i love my parents
i love kitten but i afraid to take care of em as pet
I have been told tat i'm cute n i luk lyke dayang but i dunt think so nyahaa
i have changed a lot over e past yr
i have a hair cut n hair coloured n ma hair turn spoilt due to alot of chemicalx
I do home skincare treatment at least thrice a wk
I HAVE A Mood swing
I have rejected someone before
Im now strtin startin to hav a healhy lyfestyle cx i think of my future
I do home workouts altenately
i quit to smoke too much
im not e mawnin person
I love humble n friendly people n i respect tat
Im quiet doesnt mean im arrogant cus im very shy

I JUST LOVE TO SMELL MY MAN

2010-03-15T03:08:00.000-07:00

i love u means that i accept you for e person that you r and tat i do not wish to change u into sumone else.It means that i do not expect perfectionx frm u just u do not expect it frm me.It meanx tat i will love u n stand by u even truhgh e woest of tymex.It meanx lovin u when ure in bad mood or too tired to do e thingx tat i want to do.It meanx lovin u when ure down not just when ure fun to be with.'I LOVE YOU' meanx tat i know ur deepest secret n do not judge u for em,askin in return only tat u do not judge me for mine.It meanx tat i care enuf to fight fer what we have n tat i luv enuf not to let go.It meanx thinkin of u,dreamin of u,wantin n need u constantly , n hoping that u feel e same way fer me.

VERY CHEESEY BUT TRUE

2010-02-17T04:41:00.000-08:00

had great tyme spend with boyfie at e beach love him so much..bf accompany me go suntanning..while waitin fer ma skin get dark,he turn out to bcum lyke cancing cant kip still walk here n there bcos of e sun..he feel bored n entertain e pathetic bangla.. bf scared himself get burn.....haha.he join e caucasian playin rugby..... 10.30am mon 15/2/2010.......

feeling good

2010-02-08T01:56:00.000-08:00

1 bottle of green tea egg tart 5 nuggetx call bf,
2moro cut hair at far east,shop accesories,darken ma hair colour

helo love

2010-02-05T03:44:00.000-08:00

Your the one who clearx ma sorrow and wipex away ma tearx
Your the guy who makex me laugh and chases away my fearx
You ma love, are ma hope Ma inspiration to write
Mz darlin, you mean more to me Than anything in life
When I gaze into your eyex I love you even more If ur ex return you
When we're forced to say goodbye tho Ma heart becomes torn
Ma love for you cannot compare to the love of any other
i cnt find betta guy except you
beCox even if we separate I could never love another
If you were in danger I'd take my life for yourx
Because love, if you were hurt ma life would be destroyed
I cant begin to tell you Just what I feel for you
Instead I will narrow it down to three little wordx

i dunno watx nest i jux hope to be with him till e end..

2010-02-05T02:53:00.000-08:00

FINALLY I GOT JOB AS BEAUTY ADVISOR CENOSIS
FACE AND BODY SLIMMING TREATEMENTX
E COMPANY GOT E PACKAGE OF MANICURE,COSMETIC,N HAIRDO
I GOT TO LEARN ALL OF THIS ESPECIALly MANICURE...START AFTA CNY...........HOP E PPLE THERE IS FRIENDLY N DNT MAKE MA LIFE DIFFICULT.. ALL E BEST FOR ME...

How do I tell you, all that I feel? When I maself wonder "is this al real?" Emotionx lie dormant, lost in the past, naw they hav all surfaced, the current runx fast. Ive bin swimmin in a sea of regret, headin towardx shore, as dayx turn to sunsetx. Ive never allowed much love in ma life as bfo, when I did it cut like a knife. I felt ma heart bleed, and heard ma heart break. But here I naw stand, wiping cobwebx frm ma eyex, and pickin up the piecex frm ma past full of liex. The sun risex jux as it setx. The water is recedin in ma sea of regretx. Off in the distance I see a rainbow, I feel ma heart string, as love beginx to grow. You take a step towardx me, and offer your hand. Two setx of footprintx naw lay in the sand. Wil you be with me, with each new sunrise? And slide down the rainbow where the pot of gold liex? Wil you take ma hand in yourx, and never lead me astray? Wil you love me and need me wit the close of each day?

elooooooooooo

2009-11-29T11:21:00.001-08:00

itx been long tyme ass i didnt update ma blog..
urrgghh...life bin gettin stressful.......alot of thingx bin clouded inside my thick skull n
i guex itx alread overpolluted cx ma brain is numb ryte nw,,,,however, desperately i nid a job...i wana get a job by yr 2010.. my ambition wana to bcum a makeup artist..i got interest n diploma cert in tat..if possible i dnt want to work as ratail fashion boutiquex itx fcukin sickenin..ma dad hav bin werkin hard throwin out notes fer my course fees..i jux dont want to disapoint em...i love em reali alot...i rili feel bad.........
ive got no confidence inside my heart to join e cosmeticx environment....i need to learn more.........
i nid to earn money to cover up for my ownself,,giv ma mum $$$ for her needs...........n i wana save up fo ma future i wan to marry ????? one day i nid at least a stable job..........oh God please fulfill my wish...pls gimme more nerves n burn up my nervouse frm publicity so tat im bold enuf to get on wit my ambition...pls...........ive been too much indulge wit my daydreamx.... but i wish it wont decay n fulfill it one day...

hmm aniway..in 2 weekx tyme im turnin up 1 yr older...yeyeh if im forever21..itx fcukin cool on earth...yg laen tue..aku mseh mude kan bgos..haa...bf jealous tat i still luk cuter than him..
12th dec zoukout??..im goin wit bf n frenxx................getx freakout cx ma skin doenxt luuk tan lyke bfo....my skin will luk yuckx on tt day ahh nemid jx fcuk it...im no more beach babes durin ma sch dayx..bf lazy to accompany me to pantai*winkxx*............

werkin lyfe suckx how i wish money comex from e sky haha lame

2009-06-30T21:54:00.000-07:00

itx bin a mnth i worked at forever 21
sorry fer late update guyxx..
too tired to on ma lappy SUMTYMEX
hmm at work
cnt throw away my fake from customerx..they r hatred to me
if they r irrtate to me i will reply in a rude way to em..sory we all humanx honey u aint my V.I.P i.d like you have no idea.RECENTLY Have a rather bad cough, my mind is in a complete mess and I really really want to buy a few thingx from ma salary but i need to save some. hmm sumtymex durin ma break.while eatin sittin by my phone on e side waiting all day long is becoming such a tedious task... especially knowing half the time of my 1 hr break it isn't going to happen.nemind i noe hex in his lalaland ...food makex me happy at least ..
The time of the month is drawing closer, the sensitivity in my reaction to things disgusts me . thingx tatx disgust me ix 2moro is workin dayx facin customerx.. no lyfe wkendx have to werk..duhh
Anyway, hope the rest of you guys have a good week.

disco nyte

2009-05-10T16:29:00.000-07:00

Jux awake
brain aint function well but ma handx r itchy nw still super tired ma bonex r limp.....
Last nyte we headed down to 0 Bar..was terribly pretty fun + funny afta ystadae reflection there..
Getting drinks are such a chore bf treat me tanx sm bf(but guex i got high anywayx HAHA). Dance dance, i fallin' apart to half time, ma back is sore but to say the least my legx arent angry at me (thanks legx for being so understanding, yur a peach (taken from thug)).First club in agex I was lyke so hyper bf told me tat lol gosh e song thou i wasnt into it im not good wit e dance n songx but i jx anyhow at least ma body move fer abit haha jx maen sebat but duhh eu noe wat i got fell off e high stoolx twice..haha k im suckx...paiseyh lol..Bf i got annoyed wen eu dance wit gerlx.....................grrr.......but luckily ma patience ix there at tat moment

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2009-05-07T00:51:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS RATHER RELAXED DAY,kinda ZZZzzzZZZ most of evry secondx n minutex..,,,,,sorry bf im nt mad over eu actuali...itx jx tat myb i had moodswing n jx lil cnflict...<3>

itchy handx pass by postin ma blog

2009-05-06T00:26:00.000-07:00

My childhood aged of 6 till 17 yrx consisted of:
toys,wat i want make sure ma parentx fulfil if nt i will cried loudly at e mall,pampered spoiltbrat,stress wit studiex,nt interest wit guyx,luk nerdy n decent,discovering the wonders of makeup and secretly strt addicted smokin wen i ws 17 insid e room n spray lotx of perfumex all over ma body,brush ma teeth wit fresh colgate so tat itx doexnt smell badly..

Now, all I think about is:hurt, change, manipulation, stressing abt gettin proper job money $$$ fear of loosin e love onex..Till then, tea + digestives, shiny toy gunx+michelle branch natsha beddingfield and redsamporna make a bearable substitute

♥ Boyfriend Razif

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2009-05-05T02:38:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep because once again, my thoughts are running wild among the wildfire.Time for reflection. nw den eu noe the truth hurts, but lies worse.but boy i dnt lie lyke eu did to me..ma heart is already shut down for eu ttx e reason i ignored ur msg/call for so long..dnt blame me cx eu noe urslf tat we r officialy over..we r nw in separated way n im alread found sumone betta.. oh boy.. im fallin in love wit ma Prince R...Nw on ur fcukin ages eu can feel it ryte nw tat ur angel is sayin gdbye.. hw mch i felt tis fcukin sick pain mch worst den eu ohboy if eu noe hw to feel it bad n if eu waken up bt itx over too late ..Eu r jx wastin ma fcukin tyme eu done big sinful to me bytch n itx done nw .Dnt feel gd or bad nw cx im not ur angel tat ya tink of lyke last tyme ....dnt need to regret or blablabla guex ya shud b happier nw cux ya chose tis way what!? get sumbody betta or bcum beta person la lessen ur pple not to hate eu la.....i dnt wana know about eu nw, Till then, itx ma love you're abusing n eu bring disgrace to ma pastlyfe fcuk...CIAO.

2009-05-01T23:11:00.000-07:00

Too much pride,

Between you and I,

Not a jealous girl,too wastin tyme to hold grudgex cx I noe God still exist

but male eu r pussyfucker eu stupid eu lie,

But I guex thatx juxt what man slutx do,

How could it ever be juxt us two?

Never loved you enough to trust you

im not yourx anymore

to sum it all up you bring ma lyfe mch mch miserable

no expectation,no motherfuckin dissapointment to leave you cx ya chose b tat forever

fuckin past ex

When yu r dreamin with a broken heart The waking up is the hardest part You roll outta bed and down on your kneex And for a moment you can hardly breathe Wonderin was she really here? Is she standing in my room? No shex not, 'cause shex gone, gone, gone, gone, gone assfcuk....

dotdotdot

2009-04-26T17:34:00.000-07:00

::I wished I could feel you right down to the deep pockets of your heart. Sticks and stones may break your bonesbut heartbreaks cut deeper

NW i POSTED twice FOR TODAY

Wokeup 1.30pm N got up afta feel vibrate of ma fon
BF MSG "bby da bgn blm"
Rest at home Not yet fully recovered gettin worst i guex

pamper maself wit hot tea
Itx getx rather temptin nt to smoke. So i smoked a stick today, trying to convince myself not to smoke anymore until i get better

zzzzzzZZzz

2009-04-26T10:28:00.000-07:00

Had small quarrel wit bf n we finaLLy tok otp n settled ard 4 ++ we put down e fon bf wana finished up his las game n ask him to slip suun,,im stil awake find hardtymex to slip.

body started to feel uncomfortable n sticky...cnt hold on to it any longer

first sunday in ages had mawnin shower twice in between 6+am n 9 ++ am

N another irritatin partx is therx free flow of ma watery flu e the amount of soggy tissues by my bed side start to grow, my nose turns redder by the minute..Ma Coughin syrup finished duuhh..

Nw oread 10**+ Im goin to chnge into sum comfy boxerx n head to dream land

Ciao

lazy to rotate... e amount of ma soggy tissues

Terbangon!

2009-04-25T08:25:00.000-07:00

Sudden wokeup early Mawnin..

my body feels rather limp. I had a string of nightmares and I woke up bearing sweat on the face even though the fan is switch on to e highest level

e weather is fcukin humid

n addin up ma body temperature is getin warmer

drank plenty gulp of warm water ma throat itchy n dry

n ate a tablespoon of coughin syrup

rub ma neck wit vickx.

abit relief nw

mitin boifey at hougang layta on ard 6:30pm...k till here bec to lala land..doze off..ciao..

sICkkk =(

2009-04-21T15:59:00.000-07:00

This aftanun wokeup freakin late

itx alread 4pm..

Minor fever Non fCukin stop coughin flu sorethroat

chec ma fon..yeyeh finally bf msg me....-=D

he ask me to haf alot of rest etc

tnx fer e concern dearest

He also SICK pity him haix

Nutin mch 2dae rest e whole dae rot on ma bed....

Terribly Sad Day

2009-04-20T00:33:00.000-07:00

Boifey gon for his atec 4 daex ' gONA fcukin miss eu dear

tutor ma rascal kuzzinx fer 2 hrx *headpain**
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nw is already 12++++ am im fcukin bored nw.....
im fuckin frustrated....

im dumbfounded at maself

trim ma eyebrowx n done
ma brain was abt to burst out
too fcukin cramp inside ma thick skull

hw i wish talk wit bf otp in e middle of e nyte but sadly he inside e jungle right nw

Pretty fyne fun day

2009-04-19T15:30:00.000-07:00

Wokeup not too long ago

still im super tired ma tightx r gonna burst(frm all e fatnex)..

lyke real haa......

fri went dxo to chill n drank n sat went dxo again n head to 1st timer lame club so-called "chilliex"

wit my boifey, gf yaya n bf matex their wifey n bla bla bla.....

had awesome day wit em laughin all outx n gr8.......

ma throatx strtx hurtin mayb bcx of unhealthy saitanic drinkx n big numerous of smoke smoke smoke.........